tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-52904189865170665932024-02-07T16:45:34.498-08:00On Eagles WingsShebear29http://www.blogger.com/profile/11944187838317346451noreply@blogger.comBlogger52125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5290418986517066593.post-56384839989640262742013-01-15T08:43:00.003-08:002013-01-15T08:43:57.668-08:00Wow it has been awhile.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Well hello everyone.<br />Since a friend mentioned that she was going to be looking at blogs today it encouraged me to do at least a quick update. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">It has been over a year as I always forget to take the time to put my random thoughts on paper. So very much has happened since I've been here last. My friend, Pastor and boos of the last 5 years has retired. A new younger model has taken his place. Still adjusting to this one but it is all good. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I am thoroughly enjoying my special friend referenced in my last post or two. In my opinion thing s are better than ever. There are those in my life that don't approve of the relationship and the good thing is they don't need to. Many changes in store for the next phase that will take about a year to complete. The above picture was part of his Christmas present in 2011. Took over 200 shots to get 12 or so that I really liked. Remind me next time to do this when it is above 40 degrees out. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Still on my weight loss journey. Had my 3 year surgery anniversary back in November and am holding steady at 152 pounds lost. I do need to get back on the exercise bandwagon. It is so east to skip one day then the next. For overall health I MUST get back to basics. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">On the crafting front I am still shy about trying to make an article of clothing for myself. I have the yarn and the hooks but lack not the ability, but the confidence to try. One day I will just say screw it and start a project. There is a skirt and a sweater that I really want and eventually will have. Still enjoy making shawls, scarves, hats and fingerless mitts. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Love cooking and baking. Thanks to the wonderful fb posts from a friend I am branching out and trying many new things. Some days the experiments work, others not fit for random passing wildlife. It is quite fun to try though. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Trying to learn that pleasing oneself is not a bad thing and can actually be good for you. Difficult to overcome many years of training to please everyone else first is not easy. Some day I will find the balance needed. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Well, that is enough for now. Will TRY to update more than once a year. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Sheila</span>Shebear29http://www.blogger.com/profile/11944187838317346451noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5290418986517066593.post-14364443720693544092011-06-29T06:53:00.000-07:002011-06-29T07:10:45.988-07:00Fear, good or bad?Fear is a big part of our lives. More I think than we like to acknowledge.<br />Most of the time it is easier to see and accept fears in others than in ourselves.<br />One of my biggest fears is not to be needed.<br />Because of this I tend to stray toward people that need help. Or at least in my perception need help. This is not always a good thing.<br /><br />The gentleman I have been spending time with for awhile now has large amounts of fear in his life. Fear of body image, fear that he is not good enough, fear that people only want something from him, fear that if he spends too much time around people they won't like him anymore. All fears I can understand yet it hurts to see. We have a nice 3 day weekend planned and he made the comment to me "What if you can't stand me after only a day?" He forgot about hte reverse of that. What if he can't stand me after a day. I think two people with similar fears spending time in close quarters will be a good thing. It just might reveal if the feelings are real or percieved. Only time will tell.<br /><br />Sometimes fear can be a good thing. It helps us stay out of dangerous situations. It can protect us from getting hurt if we listen. It can heighten our awareness of things going on around us. Overcoming emotional fear is difficult but necessary in order to grow at least for me. Small steps that might take a lot longer than we wish are sometimes what is needed.Shebear29http://www.blogger.com/profile/11944187838317346451noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5290418986517066593.post-50657823922718437332011-06-27T05:56:00.000-07:002011-06-27T06:12:48.618-07:00Hmm what to do when choices are not easy<strong>Choises.... they are a good thing so I am told. </strong><br /><strong>Funny how sometimes they are not as easy as we would like to see.</strong><br /><strong></strong><br /><strong>Since losing over 150 pounds it still amazes me that I am treated differently by people. Because I am still the same person inside that I always was it makes me wonder if the people are interested in the outside only or who I really am. </strong><br /><strong></strong><br /><strong>I have a special friend that I have been spending time with since October.</strong><br /><strong>He has helped me overcome some of my body image issues. </strong><br /><strong>He says he cares yet frequently his actions do not match his words. </strong><br /><strong>After several talks about why this is I do understand, but it does not make it any easier to deal with some days. How long do I allow for those baby steps to be taken? I know that I can be intense in how I show feelings to people and that it can overwhelm those that are not in the same place I am. Do I hold back or do I just be me? There is a button I saw that says "Never give up on someone you can't go a day without thinking about." Well, I have yet to go a day without thinking about this person yet there are times when it is painfull to do so. Again, how long before I have to protect me instead fo protecting the other person?</strong><br /><strong></strong><br /><strong>Now comes the other issue. </strong><br /><strong>Another individual wants to spend time with me and become a friend. </strong><br /><strong>I have no problems with that, as one can not have too many friends. </strong><br /><strong>The issue is they have made it clear already that they are interested to see if it could become more. They want to take me out places and have me meet people they know. There is alot in commen and it is almost like talking with someone I have known for years instead of weeks. They are facign the same surgery that I have gone through and have some of the same body image issues I had and still have. I know I can be a support, but don't want to encourage when there is not really a chance for it to progress. How or do I enjoy the friendship when it could become complicated? </strong><br /><strong></strong><br /><strong>CHOISES ARE NOT ALWAYS EASY.</strong><br /><strong></strong><br /><strong></strong>Shebear29http://www.blogger.com/profile/11944187838317346451noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5290418986517066593.post-36544842452167028042010-08-23T05:36:00.000-07:002010-08-23T05:55:46.089-07:00Here I am again......<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhWFDdxDFr93pugd6XJBcs8gZ3KANy3U0AHdqEfOAq5dhhExk6w6x1soimkbEpdwAIFtAr0BnLbiGXRJPsIwMobD0a0rEH9gx4fv0eFx2da2y_ZINl032cB9LH2nhlmqVnYjxrqNYqKB6E/s1600/Tribal_Phoenix_Tattoo.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 120px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 150px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5508587119740603330" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhWFDdxDFr93pugd6XJBcs8gZ3KANy3U0AHdqEfOAq5dhhExk6w6x1soimkbEpdwAIFtAr0BnLbiGXRJPsIwMobD0a0rEH9gx4fv0eFx2da2y_ZINl032cB9LH2nhlmqVnYjxrqNYqKB6E/s320/Tribal_Phoenix_Tattoo.jpg" /></a><br /><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEilcKwEfnNCaEtRpgehtxQeRgbB3gssgGljTovOGWbvIcpRLUWGHpbXhNZVqaM6Au2QoRkvYne8jUFuTSNn2c-9fnLCcG8y-xB2cBwfq5CcZMJRJQ0BiwTyOjVPmTr9cxKo8OSWXQYjUBo/s1600/tat.bmp"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; WIDTH: 207px; FLOAT: right; HEIGHT: 320px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5508583798124654722" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEilcKwEfnNCaEtRpgehtxQeRgbB3gssgGljTovOGWbvIcpRLUWGHpbXhNZVqaM6Au2QoRkvYne8jUFuTSNn2c-9fnLCcG8y-xB2cBwfq5CcZMJRJQ0BiwTyOjVPmTr9cxKo8OSWXQYjUBo/s320/tat.bmp" /></a><br />Hi all. I wanted to post a picture of the newest tattoo even though it is now well over a month old. I still have 1 more that I want but am still saving up the pennies for it. Once it is done then my set of four that I have always wanted will be complete. Makes me happy to be so close to that goal. </div><br /><div></div><br /><div></div><br /><div>On the job front I now have 2 of them. The newest one is at an airport taking peoples money for parking. Not difficult at all, but not exactly stimulating either. I have met some great people already and have started picking out regulars. I have 2 goals for this job. Well 3 actually. First is to get a gentleman tht rarely smiles to smile on a regular basis, 2nd is to relax and let the paperwork mojo come back to me, and 3rd is to bank 75% of the money I earn for emergencies. Not bad goals in my opinion. </div><br /><div></div><br /><div>On the crafting front I have hit a wall. I have 1 shawl and 1 blanket to work on and NO motivation to finish either one. I guess I am a cool weather crafter after all. I mena who really wants wool or worse acrylic piled on top of them when it is warm out? I also find myself wanting to become a selfish crafter. I want to make things for me, me and oh yeah me. I can appreciate the hard work that goes into the items because I made them. One is never sure if others do or not. I have been stockpileing some special yarn for a big project and now am just waitong for the right inspiration to hit. I hope it is soon. </div><br /><div></div><br /><div>On the homefront things are slightly better. I received an extension of when I need to be out of the house by almost 3 weeks. That is a huge relief since I have no time to pack. I also want time to deep clean my room and at least one other before I go. I want to be able to show that I can be nice even if others are not.....</div><br /><div></div><br /><div>Leaving for Pennsylvania tomorrow afternoon. I am both looking forward and dreading it. I have to locate housing and a job while there if I am to move back. I als have some unresolved issues with family members to deal with. I do not want to move unless I can move straight into an apartment of my own instead of in with a friend while I look. I hate moving to begin with so why do it twice?</div><br /><div></div><br /><div>Well, that is about all for now. Will update again when I think of it.</div><br /><div>Sheila</div><br /><div></div><br /><div>P.S. Here is a picture of the final tattoo I want. My finished product will have a few modifications of course to make it mine. I had to put the picture at the top since I can't figure out how to put ti at the bottom yet. </div><br /><div></div><br /><div></div><br /><div></div><br /><div></div><br /><div></div><br /><div></div><br /><div></div><br /><div></div><br /><div></div><br /><div></div><br /><div></div><br /><div></div><br /><div></div><br /><div></div><br /><div></div><br /><div></div><br /><div></div><br /><div></div>Shebear29http://www.blogger.com/profile/11944187838317346451noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5290418986517066593.post-81096160044905203662010-07-28T04:48:00.000-07:002010-07-28T04:59:49.849-07:00Sleep Who Needs It ?The answer to that one would most likely be me.<br />Construction on and near our street for the past few weeks.<br />I don't mind the beeping and the rumbling of hte machienes, but the not parking in my own driveway, that is annoying.<br />They sent us a notice sayign for 2 days we would have to park elsewhere.<br />That has now turned into a week of getting up at 5:45am so that I can move my car before they start for the day. I DO NOT like the idea of parking it where I can't see it all night.<br />Now it will be at least the end of the week before we can park at home again.<br />If it rains that delays it even more. Guess what, rain is on the horizon. YEAH!!!<br />In case you can't tell, lack of sleep makes me grumpy.<br /><br />On the home front, doo doo head poopy face aka bob is pushing my buttons.<br />As a matter of fact he has invented a few new one to push.<br />One day really soon I am going to push back then LOOK OUT!!<br />He will not know what hit him.<br />It is all good if he wants to change the rules,b ut if I do then the answer is always no.<br />Makes me tempted to cook nothign but eggs and tuna for a week.<br />He is mildly alergic to both. ;-)<br /><br />On the crafting friont I finished one prayer shawl and mailed it out.<br />I have another that I am kind of stalled on.<br />I know why I am stalled on it. It is the one I started while in FL.<br />I find it difficult to work on it knowing I was praying for Tom when I started it.<br />I will finish it and have plans to send it to another cancer patient to have.<br />There is no way I could keep this one. Too many emmmotions attached to it.<br /><br />On the weight and exercise front I have broken my plateau.<br />I am back to the gym 3 days a week. I still want to get back to evcery other day and am working on it a little at a time. The weight is slowly starting to come off again.<br />I need to concentrate on the details to make it happen.<br />Small healthy meals and good choices for snacks.<br /><br />Well, thats wnough for now. Will write more in a few days.<br />SheilaShebear29http://www.blogger.com/profile/11944187838317346451noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5290418986517066593.post-57933476123677888732010-07-14T06:58:00.000-07:002010-07-14T07:04:15.700-07:00addictions come in many different styles<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi_NCaLR-3SHgr0kmDLB6yzu9zvVaVeHyvcb33QDXzXdIZJR8ZvmMZQ55skBCrcfLYYNJpPi0YFRY65OkglgNhHzjAh2rfRTPETMe142vFW20TiE8hTmOeox6qHbHiJvkC71VD9mxMHcIc/s1600/yarn2.bmp"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 239px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 320px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5493762284675202434" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi_NCaLR-3SHgr0kmDLB6yzu9zvVaVeHyvcb33QDXzXdIZJR8ZvmMZQ55skBCrcfLYYNJpPi0YFRY65OkglgNhHzjAh2rfRTPETMe142vFW20TiE8hTmOeox6qHbHiJvkC71VD9mxMHcIc/s320/yarn2.bmp" /></a><br /><div>Now, we all know that food is an issue for me. </div><br /><div>I have always fallen into the live to eat not eat to live category. </div><br /><div>After the surgery it really is not any different except now I am choosy about the food.</div><br /><div>Only because I know there is only going to be a small bit and it HAS to be good for me. </div><br /><div></div><br /><div>My other addiction is yarn. </div><br /><div>Especially yarn that people tell me is hard to get or expensive. </div><br /><div>It becomes a challenge to acquire this yarn and then for the most part it sits.</div><br /><div>I hate that it is the owning and not the using that sucks me in. </div><br /><div>That being said here is a picture of my newest yarns. </div><br /><div>They came all the way from Germany. </div><div> </div><div>Well if I can figure out how to beat any of these addictions I will share. </div><div>Till later.</div><div> </div><div>Sheila</div><br /><div></div><br /><div></div>Shebear29http://www.blogger.com/profile/11944187838317346451noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5290418986517066593.post-66471188968288647412010-07-08T08:14:00.001-07:002010-07-08T08:33:39.457-07:00Quick Update<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi5C5tv6CXPxIMvMDdKg4wE1n5oNUHeD1AvuwWggkeI63cmkdQbMMerUB7buNQAXwtxiAVhqDOhrQrP1EeP4hpQ1VWPcFY9qDjQvDBgzfUMms0N8PDGWcs5cvsefGAW3ztk84g6n-fHPSQ/s1600/koi12.gif"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; WIDTH: 290px; FLOAT: right; HEIGHT: 320px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5491558386028329938" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi5C5tv6CXPxIMvMDdKg4wE1n5oNUHeD1AvuwWggkeI63cmkdQbMMerUB7buNQAXwtxiAVhqDOhrQrP1EeP4hpQ1VWPcFY9qDjQvDBgzfUMms0N8PDGWcs5cvsefGAW3ztk84g6n-fHPSQ/s320/koi12.gif" /></a><br /><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjputvGB3WNcYiWxoYXWY2tE9ygBYiZsjb8eZFr2xTF__ww_iZdl88CqRdphDDZngbMkushXoti53ljax1pCYBwzoCPP-zZl8DEWsx4UNXZEFgTHBOFE31lxMB7fQzZq7UxPYw6QieqZpU/s1600/me1.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 193px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 320px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5491554225732276146" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjputvGB3WNcYiWxoYXWY2tE9ygBYiZsjb8eZFr2xTF__ww_iZdl88CqRdphDDZngbMkushXoti53ljax1pCYBwzoCPP-zZl8DEWsx4UNXZEFgTHBOFE31lxMB7fQzZq7UxPYw6QieqZpU/s320/me1.jpg" /></a><br /><br /><div>Wow what a couple of weeks. I was stuck in weight loss heck on a plateau that I just couldn't break. The good news is I finally broke through and am going in the right direction once again. The insane heat we have been experiencing has helped with my water intake. It also helps with food choices since who wants heavy meals when they are already hot and sticky?</div><br /><div></div><br /><div>Exercise has been so so. I do go to the gym but not as often as I should. I never miss a Tuesday spin class but need to get my mojo back in that area. It does help that we are now playing volley ball every Tuesday evenign from 7 - 9pm. It is great exercise and even better fun. </div><br /><div></div><br /><div>I did it, I did it. I finally got the second tattoo that I have been wanting. It is a nice little Koi fish. Now I have one overtop of each part of my chest. Even though I know it will be awhile I am already planning the next one I want. Most probably on my right calf. I am thinking a nice free flowing branch with blossoms on it. That one will be my Earth tattoo. The one after that will be a styalized Phoneix to represent fire. Once that one is finished I will have one each for air, water, earth and fire. I think that will be all, but one never knows what the future brings. </div><br /><div></div><br /><div>My crafting has picked up a little bit. There are several new designs I want to try out and I will this time. I am learning to work with thinner yarn and smaller hooks. I even treated myself to some recycled cashmere yarn in a beautiful rasberry color. So soft, and so pretty. That will be saved for a very special project I have in mind. Now I just need some in black to compliment the berry. Maybe I should write to the person i bought it from and ask that she keep me in mind in case she comes across any.</div><br /><div></div><br /><div>I have been playing around with the idea of sharing this blog with some friends online. I know I can trust them to see me in all my weakness and still like me for me. They have been a big part of many of these journeys anyway so I should share with them. </div><br /><div></div><br /><div>Well, I have rattled on for longer than planned so I will close for now and come back again soon. </div></div>Shebear29http://www.blogger.com/profile/11944187838317346451noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5290418986517066593.post-25987543538345628922010-06-17T05:13:00.000-07:002010-06-17T05:24:26.652-07:00Here we are once again.......<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgvXDJep45-_FIPoPHKJFKnrpqHQ4qu8Zi7LunPYINLO0Mw6c5YBoQyrCGqbJhKgBwr3YoxtthxpGYe_b7QMGq8YmcDR7mVs2qWtFgN7EakJignanCp0gImZcSWWvpBZvimsuh_o9Rx8JI/s1600/100_19844.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 320px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 213px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5483716520424593906" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgvXDJep45-_FIPoPHKJFKnrpqHQ4qu8Zi7LunPYINLO0Mw6c5YBoQyrCGqbJhKgBwr3YoxtthxpGYe_b7QMGq8YmcDR7mVs2qWtFgN7EakJignanCp0gImZcSWWvpBZvimsuh_o9Rx8JI/s320/100_19844.jpg" /></a><br /><div>Let me start by saying it has been awhile with many changes. </div><br /><div>I've lost almost 100 pounds, am almost divorced (August), love the gym, and am thinking about moving back to Pennsylvania. </div><br /><div>The saddest thing that has happened is I lost a dear friend not to his illness, but to the treatment of it. We had just re-connected in the past few months and I was looking to see where that was going. A shame that it was cut short. The GREAT thing is I was able to spend three wonderful days with him before he passed. That was such a gift from God. One I will cherish for many years to come. Tom, rest quietly knowing how much people cared for you and that you are missed. </div><div> </div><div>My craftign has been on hte back burner recently. Not sure why other than it has started to get hot and I prefer to work with wool and make shawls. Too warm right now for a heavy weight yarn to hold on my lap. Maybe it is time to go back to dishcloths for a couple of months. </div><div> </div><div>I will try yet again to update more often, but will not promise. </div><div>Till then may any who read this be blessed.</div><div>Sheila</div>Shebear29http://www.blogger.com/profile/11944187838317346451noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5290418986517066593.post-40019287501184018562009-12-07T04:48:00.001-08:002009-12-07T04:51:12.280-08:00What a day or in other words what a pain.Wow, today started off with a bang.<br />Awake at 4am due to both of us being on opposite shifts.<br />Husband decided ot play computer games till almost 6am.<br />By this time I have no hope of getting any more sleep.<br />I so wanted to fall into the habit of allowing food to fix it all.<br />I did not however do that.<br />Instead I had a small breakfast, my vitamin and some water.<br />Then I went to the gym at 6:30am.<br />Did 1 1/4 miles on the treadmill then came to work.<br />Not sure how I am going to reslove the underlying issues, but I will sure try.Shebear29http://www.blogger.com/profile/11944187838317346451noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5290418986517066593.post-15648491679559577362009-12-03T09:30:00.000-08:002009-12-03T09:49:31.464-08:00Starting out on a New yet Old journey!<span style="color:#000000;">Some of you may know and some may not, but I have entered the next phase of my weight loss journey. There are so many pitfalls out there that need not only to be avoided, but I must learn how to deal with them when they do come up. One of hte steps I took after many months of thinking about it was to have bariatric surgery. No matter what people might say, it is not cheating, it is not a quick fix. It is however a tool to be used to change and in some cases save your life. It means knowing htat I must exercise in some form every day. I must learn to not eat things that could cause me to fall into old bad habits. It means learning how to live without some of my favorite things. It is WORTH it to be health again. It is still going to be a long and slow process which is good since that means Ihave time to learn and to adjust to the new way of lving.</span><br /><br />My crafting goes on in spurts. I will crochet like a madwoman for days then might not picl up a hook for a month. Ihave been obsessed with shawls recently, and well as buying sock yarn. The funny thing is I do not make socks, but the yarn is so soft and colorful that it is a new favorite.<br />I want to start making felted bags again as well as learn some new stitches and patterns. One day when the time is right I will learn to knit. There are way more options out there for knitters than for those of us that crochet.<br /><br />Work continues to go well. I really love working for my church. They have been such a great source of support in all that I do. With Christmas coming up it is our busy season and that makes me happy. I would much rather have too much to do than not enough. Sadly ther is a lot of serious illness around here lately and that does add some stress to the day. All that any of us can do is pray for those that are ill and offer our help when it is needed.<br /><br />Home life is as it is. Not good, not horrible but just there. Yes I still have some decisions I need to make on this frint, but I am sure that when the time is right that all will be clear to me. My 2 fur babies are thriving in this weather. MooMoo my old man kitty uses the cooler weather as an excuse to snuggle as much as I let him get away with. Mattie loves that we have not had snow yet sicne that means she is still allowed outside. I have an on again off again affair with housecleaning. If any of you organizing types need a challange, give me a holler.<br /><br />I will try to update more than once every 4 or 5 months. I think putting things down where not only I but others can read them will help hold me accountable. Til next time.<br />SheilaShebear29http://www.blogger.com/profile/11944187838317346451noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5290418986517066593.post-35298794795015811682009-04-09T05:04:00.001-07:002009-04-09T05:10:22.708-07:00Vampires are not the only ones to bite.I thought maybe a catchy title would be a nice change.<br />It is true though, not only vamps bite a person.<br />Everyone of us is capeable of taking a chunck out of a person.<br />It might not be literal (at least I hope not), but we can tear out chunks<br />of each other.<br />Now to explain what I mean.<br />We so very often hurt the ones we love the most.<br />Sometimes we see it, but usually we don't.<br />Each time that we do it is like tearing a a chunck out of them.<br />Now if we do realize that we are hurting our loved ones,<br />why do we do it?<br />I can only answer for myself.<br />It usually means for me that it is a form of controll.<br />If I am upset then why aren't you?<br />Now this in no way makes it the right thing to do but it still happens.<br />There are days that we tear out a hunk of ourselves as well.<br />It is almost easier to hurt ourself than to hurt another.<br />Sometimes the love for someone wins out over our selfish nature.<br />Then the hurt is easier to deal with.Shebear29http://www.blogger.com/profile/11944187838317346451noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5290418986517066593.post-11474569976986939832009-03-30T05:22:00.000-07:002009-03-30T05:36:01.195-07:00Monday, Monday<div></div><br /><div align="left"><br /></div><br /><div align="left">Wow, 2 posts in just under a week. </div><div align="left">This is probably a record for me. :)<br /></div><br /><div align="left">Yesterday I had children's time at church. </div><div align="left">It went well even though the kids had many more </div><div align="left">questions than I had been ready for. </div><div align="left">Usually they are very quiet. :)<br /></div><br /><div align="left">I thought you all might want to see apicture of the living conditions </div><div align="left">where I plan on going next year.</div><br /><div align="left"></div><br /><div align="right"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgBOyEa94imRnBJ_zruckyNU2D4nkcsqGMpGu2u-DAGESbqjnshXc6x-98bUWt3N7wMrLLcJJfRF-KFUPN8xUYSiX83C9hE00IWe5CAmiXI-cQY0S61jxT_cbYoPLysZeHOmDzvX7zgq5Q/s1600-h/living+conditions1.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 320px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 180px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5318955792304670146" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgBOyEa94imRnBJ_zruckyNU2D4nkcsqGMpGu2u-DAGESbqjnshXc6x-98bUWt3N7wMrLLcJJfRF-KFUPN8xUYSiX83C9hE00IWe5CAmiXI-cQY0S61jxT_cbYoPLysZeHOmDzvX7zgq5Q/s320/living+conditions1.jpg" /></a><br /></div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhykzmbq27E5-UWT61ZTkFHWeX6mWTPONK8WfkYBDvRh9VNEQ6tAaPuWfN2Ek4UIVCRUJmZGLgps57FeFfeXnIvvsPQ2xVXQrsvUz4l0w2C57rZHrOEwfFjH70bYOf2mRK8fSH6Mu4UFSU/s1600-h/2576_53228436733_718036733_1490217_4787630_s.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 263px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 161px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5318956661098675298" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhykzmbq27E5-UWT61ZTkFHWeX6mWTPONK8WfkYBDvRh9VNEQ6tAaPuWfN2Ek4UIVCRUJmZGLgps57FeFfeXnIvvsPQ2xVXQrsvUz4l0w2C57rZHrOEwfFjH70bYOf2mRK8fSH6Mu4UFSU/s320/2576_53228436733_718036733_1490217_4787630_s.jpg" /></a><br /><div align="right"></div><br /><div align="right"></div><br /><div align="right"></div><br /><div align="right"></div><br /><div align="right"></div><br /><div align="right"></div><br /><div align="right"></div><br /><div align="right"></div><br /><div align="right"></div><div align="right"></div><div align="right"></div><br /><div align="left">These are typical living conditions for the poeple that live on the bateys. </div><div align="left">A great many people are involved with sugarcane as a source of income.</div><div align="left">They have so little in material terms, yet their spiritual life is so very rich. </div><div align="left">Ther are times when we all have what I call "poor me" syndrom. </div><div align="left">All we need to do is look around to see just how good we have it. </div><div align="left"> </div><div align="left">On the crafting front, Ihave not 1 but 2 shawls that I really need to finish this week. </div><div align="left">One is for a birthday on Wednesday. Yeah I know, nothing like waiting for</div><div align="left">the last minute. The other can actually be finished when it is finished, but</div><div align="left">my goal is to do it this week. </div><div align="left"> </div><div align="left">Tonight is my last computer class. It is on publisher. </div><div align="left">I think this will be the most fun of all of them since I use it </div><div align="left">to do all my newsletters and my weekly bulletins. </div><div align="left">I do hope that the teacher is organized and ready to go right on time. </div><div align="left"> </div><div align="left">Well, I think that is all for now so will try to post again in about a week. </div><div align="left"> </div><div align="left">Sheila</div><div align="left"> </div>Shebear29http://www.blogger.com/profile/11944187838317346451noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5290418986517066593.post-70244121257131755662009-03-25T06:52:00.000-07:002009-03-25T07:08:51.021-07:00Long time no blogHi all. It has beena long time since my last entry.<br />I fell out of hte habit about the same time I fell off<br />the Weight Watchers wagon. I had been using htis as<br />as additional accountability feature. I should have<br />kept it up even after I left the group.<br /><br />Oh well, on to new things and to new goal.<br />Next February my church has its annual<br />missions trip to LaRomana in the Dominican Republic.<br />I am going to go with them. Now the cost is huge and<br />way out of my reach, but a very generous lady has offered to<br />pay for most of it. All I have to do is get my<br />passport and the shots. That still leaves a chuck of change to<br />come up with. I figure about $600.00 or so.<br />I am asking that all friends and family that want to<br />make a small contribution toward this missions trip<br />instead of birthday gifts or anything like that.<br />I am so excited and I stil have a year to wait.<br /><br />The other big project is going to be getting in shape for<br />the trip. It is very warm down there and right now my<br />weight would make that very uncomfortable for me.<br />My goal is to be at or under 200lbs by the trip.<br />That is very doable, but I will need your help.<br />Please do not offer me goodies and treats that are not healthy.<br />I am weak willed and will not say no. I give you freely<br />my permission to ask me what I am doing if you see me<br />eating things that are bad for me. :) I may grumble, but<br />just remind me that I said you could tell me about it.<br />I am also going to try to improve my cardio health this<br />year by walking as much as I can to as many places<br />as I can. Feel free to join me for a nightly walk if you want.<br />My goal is to get back to walking 4 miles at a time at least<br />two times a week plus a small 1 mile walk 3 times a week.<br /><br />On the crafting front I have many, many unfinished<br />projects to work on. Scarves, shawls, and an almost 2 year old single<br />fingerless glove. One day it might have a mate. There is always<br />hope. Due to my goal to save money for my trip I am<br />going to try to severly limit my yarn purchasses this year.<br />If you however wish to do so for me, I shall gladly accept. :)<br />I love Noro, Malabrigo, Peacefleece, Alpaca, and oh so many more.<br /><br />I am in another round of swap on a budget.<br />A great group of people that each have a goal of<br />spending $20.00 to put together a nice package for another person.<br />With that in mind and in case my spoiler is reading<br />2nd hand books are great in my opinion. I am very open to<br />anything you think I might like. I will try to post more often<br />during the swap to help you get to know me a little better.<br />I would love a water bottle holder or a felted coffee mug<br />sleeve. Just a coulpe ideas in case you are looking. :)<br /><br />Well, this is a lot longer than I had planned so I had better close it off for now.<br />Please feel free to leave a comment and tell me what you think.<br /><br />SheilaShebear29http://www.blogger.com/profile/11944187838317346451noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5290418986517066593.post-49140940388801418882008-10-31T07:53:00.001-07:002008-10-31T08:01:01.036-07:00recovery / swaps / is it holiday time?Next time I open my mouth to offer my help with someone elses project, would one of you all stuff a sock in me. I loved helping, but it took sooooooo much more time than I had anticipated.<br />I was guessing at 4 or 5 hours, it turned into almost 48 total.<br />She was very gratefull, and rewarded me for my help, but wow.<br /><br />I love me my yarn swaps and projects. My current swap I am in Swap on a Budget is slow going this round. My spoilee has not posted but a very few times making it hard to decide what to get her. I have a "generic" box of goodies ready, but wanted to make it personal and special just for her.<br />On the Spoiler front, I have no clue whi it is and that is half the fun. I have been trying to be chatty enough on theboards, as well as post here about my yarn goings on to help them. I hoep they have enough to go on.<br />I might be picking uip a great dresser to hold all my yarn this afternoon. It is 68" long, 18" deep and 30" high. It has 9 drawers to be filled with yarny goodness. I hope one day to have it filled that is. Right now I could fill some of it, but not anywhere near all. It will be nice to be able to spread out my yarn by type and color though.<br /><br />I am ready for the holidays to begin please. I love the cooking and family time of Thanksgiving, and the Peace and Comfort that came to us through Jesus at Christmas. This is going to be a happy holiday season this year as I am focusing on feelings not things. I as well as most people I know have more than enough things in their lives. It is time to get back in touch with our feelings. Maybe mend a bridge or two with family, maybe reach out to some friends. One never knows where the spirit of the heart might lead.Shebear29http://www.blogger.com/profile/11944187838317346451noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5290418986517066593.post-66917375357046716312008-10-23T06:31:00.000-07:002008-10-23T06:38:09.031-07:00The ICKFunny how something as simple as a cold can make you feel so rundown.<br />The simplest tasks suddenly feel very complicated.<br />Yesterday I ran 3 small errands, but it took almost 3 hours and I just wanted to crash when I was done. I did go home and have a nap.<br />I actually am a big fan of naps. It is amazing what a good 30 minutes can do to revitalize your day. I would schedule one in my daily plans if that were possible.<br /><br />On the crafting front there is not much going on.<br />I have 2 scarves to work on, and 5 dishcloths to make.<br />I also have a special someone that I want to make a shawl for, but that is on hold for a few days.<br />I just received my last sp12 box in the mail and it had some very pretty sock yarn in it. That means I need to bite the bullet and make some socks, or at least try to.<br />I was a very bad girl and ordered some great yarn ina super bulky to make myself a felted bag.<br />I can't wait for it to arrive.<br /><br />Well, thats about it in my world for now. If you stop by, feel free to leave me a note.<br />Oh, and please be prayign for a friend that is going through surgery, and a small boy who is very ill.Shebear29http://www.blogger.com/profile/11944187838317346451noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5290418986517066593.post-9031103211670746272008-10-17T05:49:00.000-07:002008-10-17T05:56:42.415-07:00Swap On A Budget Fall EditionYeah, my favorite swap has started up round 3. I am so enjoying this one.<br />I have had great spoilers both times before this and am sure I will again this time also.<br />I love the stalking involved with learning about the new person I get to spoil all for $20.00.<br />That makes it both challenging and fun.<br />So far my new spoilee is not posting much at all. That does make it more difficult. Still doeable, but difficult.<br /><br />Now for info that my spoiler might be able to use.<br />hmmmmmmmmmm<br />Reynolds lite lopi is a new fvorite yarn for me to work with.<br />I have very little of it and would welcome more in almost any color.<br />I love Noro yarn all versions.<br />I am in love with all the colorways that have purple in them. :)<br />I like office supplies alot.<br />I enjoy a bunch of little things from dollar stores as treats. (note to self remind hubby of that.)<br />I usually fixate on a new stitch or pattern till I have it as close to perfect as I can get it.<br />A stitch a day type thingy for crochet would be awesome.<br /><br />I am actually easily pleased and just enjoy hte process quite often.<br />I know I will love anything you get me.<br />I will try to post something each week to help you in case you get stuck for ideas.Shebear29http://www.blogger.com/profile/11944187838317346451noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5290418986517066593.post-89689294673617559082008-10-17T05:47:00.000-07:002008-10-17T05:49:47.731-07:00GRRRRRRRRRRRStrange title I know, but work rant on the way.<br />At work they always want me to keep them informed of when groups are comign so that they can plan accordingly. But do theyreciprocate NO!!!!!<br />Today I have not 1 or 2 but 3 groups using the building nad they have a man out there painting all thje doors and frames. I mean come on. Use logic. Wet paint na many hand needing to open doors = disaster. To top it off the "painter" had no wet paint signs to put up.<br />Rand ove and I now return you to your regularly scheduled blog.Shebear29http://www.blogger.com/profile/11944187838317346451noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5290418986517066593.post-3776772930824781652008-10-06T17:27:00.000-07:002008-10-06T17:30:54.906-07:00Ups and DownsLet me start by saying that Weight Watchers works when you follow the program.<br />I however have not been following the program, which is why I was up 3/4 of a pound this week.<br />I took a pulled muscle as an excuse to eat more instead of being just as if not more careful than normal. Now I know that it is a very good thing to write down what I eat so I can see patterns and try to make corrections, but I have been really slack about that recently.<br />Tonight I had the offer to stay home from the meeting because I knew I was going to be up a bit. Well, I needed to go to a meeting more than ever because of being up.<br />The support, advice and tips one gets are inaluable to success.<br />Till next week..............Shebear29http://www.blogger.com/profile/11944187838317346451noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5290418986517066593.post-37005729062999582522008-09-28T12:59:00.000-07:002008-09-28T13:06:08.874-07:00SP12 question 13First of all, please forgive the lack of updates.<br />I have been dealing with a few inor health issues.<br />They have been more annoying than anything else, but did not put me in a blogging mood.<br /><br />If you were told you could never again buy yarn, would would your last yarn purchase be?<br /><span style="color:#cc33cc;">As much malibrigo as I could afford. </span><br /><br /> If you were told you could never <span style="color:#3366ff;">crochet</span> again, what would be the last thing you’d <span style="color:#3366ff;">knit</span>??<br /><span style="color:#3366ff;">Probabbly a toss up between one last prayer shawl, and an afgan.</span><br /><br /> In a given year, how many times do you buy yarn? <span style="color:#cc33cc;">At least twice a month.</span><br /><br /> And what is your favorite place to buy yarn from? A festival? A shop? Online?<span style="color:#3333ff;"> Yes, all of the above. </span><br /><br /> Dish your favorite places!! <span style="color:#3333ff;">Sage gifts and yarn, etsy shops espically Georgiegirl's, and anywhere I see a good deal.</span><br /><br /> Lastly, with Fall in full swing in many areas, what is the one thing you look forward to most? <span style="color:#cc33cc;">The cooler weather and the chance to work on some heavier projects.</span><br /><br />For the most part SP12 has been a good time. I look for SP14 as SP13 comes at a bad time of year for me.Shebear29http://www.blogger.com/profile/11944187838317346451noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5290418986517066593.post-79978739882008732992008-08-27T05:01:00.000-07:002008-08-27T05:08:44.359-07:0010 %It is amazing what we will do for 10%.<br />Be it 10% off a store sale, or in this case 10% off my weight.<br />I have been on weight watchers twice now.<br />The first time I did ok, but never could reach that 1st benchmark of 10%.<br />I was beginning to think that i would not make it this time either.<br />I sat home on Sunday night ready to just give it all up.<br />I mean why bother to try when you are going to fail anyway.<br />Then, I went to my meeting on Monday night.<br />When she told me I was down 1.8 pounds I was in shock.<br />That meant I had reached that elusive goal of 10% of my body weight gone.<br />I started grinning like a nut, and didn't stop the whole night.<br />I was amazed at how much it caused me to want to get to that next 10% gone.<br />The good thing about the 2nd round is it takes a little less to get there.<br />Now this does not mean it will be easy, but it will be easier because it has already been done.Shebear29http://www.blogger.com/profile/11944187838317346451noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5290418986517066593.post-41475599586720109402008-08-22T09:54:00.000-07:002008-08-22T10:02:51.919-07:00SP12 questions 10 & 11Question 10: What Olympic event would best describe your chrocheting style?<br />The origional question was knit, but I am not a knitter so I changed it to crochet.<br /><br />My style would best be described as the 100yard dash followed by the relay.<br />I like to pick small projects that I can finish in a quick burst, or really big ones that I have to do instages.<br /><br />Question 11: What is the best thing you’ve ever received in the mail/post?<br />During my 1st swap on a budget a great lady sent me 2 skeins of frog tree alpaca in black.<br />It was my first ever alpaca, and is still my favorite. The best part about it is that she has become a great friend.<br /><br /><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/28328127@N06/2640401699/" title="100_0103 by Shebear29, on Flickr"><img src="http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3161/2640401699_ebbb97aa88_m.jpg" width="240" height="160" alt="100_0103" /></a>Shebear29http://www.blogger.com/profile/11944187838317346451noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5290418986517066593.post-24162726237080740022008-08-17T05:37:00.000-07:002008-08-17T05:38:05.030-07:00SP12 package 2Ok, I am finally getting around to posting the 2nd fantastic package from my spoiler. She or he sent 3 skeins of a beautiful soft Italian wool blend, a great book on crocket stitches (which I have already used), a neat magnet, and a postcard on how to make an Elvis sandwitch. :) They did a great job.<br /><br /><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/28328127@N06/2770896618/" title="100_0235 by Shebear29, on Flickr"><img src="http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3003/2770896618_94310c761d_m.jpg" width="240" height="159" alt="100_0235" /></a><br /><a title="100_0235 by Shebear29, on Flickr" href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/28328127@N06/2770896618/"></a>Shebear29http://www.blogger.com/profile/11944187838317346451noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5290418986517066593.post-90879997487467663942008-08-08T05:52:00.000-07:002008-08-08T05:56:25.935-07:00Secret Pal Questions 8 & 9Yes, I am once again behind on my sp12 questions.<br />One of these days I will get he hang of posting my answers when I am sent the questions..........<br /><br />Q8) What is your favorite supper for a hot summer evening?<br />Truthfully, I am just as happy with a huge hunk of watermelon as anything.<br />Seafood is also a great summertime dinner for me.<br /><br />Q9) Have you ever entered your knitting (or anything else) in the fair? Would you ever consider it?<br />Nope, I never have entered anything, and I dobt that I would. I am not into all the tiny details that make a fair winner.Shebear29http://www.blogger.com/profile/11944187838317346451noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5290418986517066593.post-83232765278623595662008-08-08T05:49:00.000-07:002008-08-08T05:51:07.181-07:00Weigh In Catch UpLast week was an other good week.<br />Another 1.6 down.<br />Now I am only 3.2 away from my 1st 10% goal.<br />I was shocked that I had lost almost 24 pounds so far.<br />Some days it is so easy, and many others it is a struggle.<br />Till Monday......Shebear29http://www.blogger.com/profile/11944187838317346451noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5290418986517066593.post-65661966583380345162008-08-01T17:04:00.000-07:002008-08-01T17:07:11.188-07:00SWOAB swap on a budgetWow, did I get an awesome package all teh way from the North Coast of Scotland. Magnusmog sent so many great items. She even thought of my two cats. :) Lets see, there is a great pencil, 2 cat toys, a package of stickers (which I will use on special gifts,) a skein of inca cloud alpaca in a great deep rick pink, a skein of 100% wool in a heathered purple, a great hank of HOMESPUN white, and a SECOND skein of HOMESPUN mixed red. Then there was the best ever HOMEMADE hat. I love it!!!! As youcan see It is the hat I am wearing in my newest ravatar. :) The colors are a mix of HANDDYED purple, red, and hot pink. There was even a great card. To top it all off, she even wrapped alot of it in dragonfly paper. I love dragonflys. I even managed to save the largest piece. THANK YOU so much Miss Jerri. :)<br /><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/28328127@N06/2723951404/" title="100_0189 by Shebear29, on Flickr"><img src="http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3073/2723951404_fddc2b0e13_m.jpg" width="240" height="180" alt="100_0189" /></a><br /><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/28328127@N06/2723951172/" title="100_0183 by Shebear29, on Flickr"><img src="http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3128/2723951172_1225eb5969_m.jpg" width="240" height="160" alt="100_0183" /></a><br /><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/28328127@N06/2723950912/" title="100_0190 by Shebear29, on Flickr"><img src="http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3179/2723950912_372060773e_m.jpg" width="240" height="159" alt="100_0190" /></a>Shebear29http://www.blogger.com/profile/11944187838317346451noreply@blogger.com0